Crying during sex I have heard happens a lot. I have always found it creepy myself. Imagine being the guy and the
girl just starts crying. I would not know what to do. I would probably freak out and get up and leave. It’s like a guy telling you that he loves you on the first date and has tears in his eyes! Tears have a time and place and no matter how emotional you get making love to the person that you love, tears should never be found here. This is not that verse in the bible that says,
Hell no! I could how this looked. I don’t know how many people have given guilty shag in their lives but I bet you it’s a lot. You cheat on your man and the next thing he wants sex. Your instinct is to say yes because you fear that if you say no your secret will be found out. It’s almost as though you are proving your love to him even more.
“Love why are you crying? Did I hurt you?”
He asked pulling out immediately when he heard me sobbing. I was visibly crying. He immediately switched on the lights and came to me.
“I am sorry! I don’t mean to cry I am sorry!”
I said. The tears were free and I think all the tension I had had in me for so long suddenly decided to say now was the time to let loose! It was not even just about Sam and Neo any more, all my frustrations just came out. Here I was sitting on
“I almost died and lost you. What was I thinking? I am so sorry and I feel so guilty. Please forgive me!”
I said making it seem like it was about the suicide. Well it was not but the excuse was pretty handy.
“Love I am here right, it’s because I love you. I wouldn’t be anywhere right now in the world except here with you. Let’s just make sure you never ever feel again that you have nowhere to turn. I will always be here!”
That was exactly what I wanted to hear! Fuck Sam. Unfortunately how many guys have sold us dreams that they intend to be in our lives forever yet the moment they got what they wanted they either cheated or left.
“Can we sleep please. I am embarrassed enough as is.”
I told him.
“Don’t forget we have the game drive at 0430 in the morning!”
He told me. I had forgotten that part and it was the expensive part of the trip. I hate waking up. There was disappointment in his voice but I was not going to give him a chance. I turned around and gave him my back. He did not even move in for a cuddle.
0430 I was standing outside by the reception door. Neo had to go pick up a bag we had forgotten from the room.
A man’s voice said from behind me. It was the guy from the pool yesterday.
“Good morning to you too. I can’t believe we up so early though! I just want to go and pass out!”
I told him.
“That makes the both of us!”
“Where is your wife? Did she fail to wake up?”
I asked him and he laughed. His instinct was to deny her but I think he thought twice.
“She is coming, she is a slow starter I wanted to make sure that the transport does not leave us!”
He said. There was something about the way he said it that made me realize that he had lied about something in the statement he had just said so I think it’s the wife part.
“Where is your boyfriend?”
He asked me.
“He is coming. He forgot something in the room. He will be back just now!”
I told him.
“My name is Lunga by the way!”
He said casually,
“And my … Wife… Is… Never mind!”
He said like I had asked. It’s amazing that somewhere somehow it had become ok for old men to allow us young girls to call them by name. We want to call them dirty old men but had he introduced himself with a Mr. In front we girls would have thought he is full of himself. This was a holiday so no need to be up tight.
“So what brings you out on holiday on a week day? Is it not affecting work?”
I asked him.
“I work for myself, tenders to be exact so right now I am not in a contract. I only start in a month and a half, its dry season!”
He said in what was supposed to be a joke I suppose. Tender dude used to be the IT thing when I was a kid. Every girl wanted them but now their hype is not as big. Now they are associated with corruption and dirty dealings they lost that glamour.
“Oh I see. By the time I am ready to get tenders I am sure they will have been banned by then!”
I said and he laughed.
“At this rate I don’t doubt that!”
I heard shuffling behind me and next thing,
It was his wife or whatever she was to him.
I had not told him my name.
I told him. Fortunately at that time Neo walked towards us. The woman rolled her eyes annoyed I think but she greeted me. I knew what that meant. She hated me already yet she did not even know me.
“Hi! Lunga let’s go!”
She said. As they walked away I heard her say,
“I told you that I don’t want too many people knowing where we are yet here you are busy introducing yourself to children, what the hell is wrong with you!”
“I didn’t tell her my real name of course come on now! I was just being friendly…”
Then the conversation was disturbed. It was obvious now that we were right about the nature of their relationship. There was no way a married couple could just drop everything to go for a retreat like this, black people are just not cut like that. People don’t know that the best time to cheat is during the week because no one can ever suspect if you say work conference. It is such a legitimate excuse. What’s even better is that most resorts have conferences on their premises anyway so if you wanted a crowd as proof it’s readily available.
“What was that about?”
Neo asked seeing everyone’s hasty repeat.
“You won the bet, they are not married and old man came to introduce himself to us!”
I told him and we burst out laughing which made the woman turn to look at us. I stared right back at her. She had been rude so I can be rude too. It’s amazing how here was someone who society says I should respect on age alone but I totally disregarded her. To me she was as good as being nothing. That is our society. There is nothing called respect. The man she was with, Lunga, had introduced himself to me by his name and it was completely normal. Picture your father walking up to a girl and introducing himself by his name and tell me that’s normal. You would be offended but if that guy did it to you would probably be ok with it as well, its normal.
“You guys are in the same car! There are three cars on this drive ladies and gentleman. Do not feed the animals and make sure you keep your hands and limbs in the vehicle at all times because we do not want to leave any part of you in the bush!”
The guide said and we laughed. The other two cars had Chinese tourists. Is it just me but do Chinese tourists look like the happiest people on earth. I mean they are always ready to clap and always grinning. If you watch American movies they are always evil and angry but in real life they look different.
“We in the same car as them!”
I told Neo and he shook his head. Now the evil woman had to be in the same car with us. Poor woman, at some point she would have to talk to us. We drove around for about an hour and a half seeing different animals. I thought we would see some hunting but in all honesty most were lazing around. We were to have a picnic breakfast in an enclosed area something I liked because with the drinking last night I was starving. When we were finally settled in the picnic area we sat on our own Neo and me. It was so romantic.
“I am bored hey. I thought a game drive you were supposed to see some kind of action. I can’t believe I came to see animals sleeping!”
I told him and he laughed.
“You need to learn to try new things though baby. You can’t be happy doing the same things you do every day!”
He reminded me. I was not that person who was all about gallivanting and trying new things. My world was pretty small and that’s the way I liked it.
“A picnic in the bush is something I think is romantic though”
He said to me.
“I second that!”
I told him. There was shuffling behind us and guess what, Lunga!
The old man said.
“Do you mind if we sit together. Meet new people and all!”
He said with his evil woman behind him.
“Hey guys. We figured sitting alone didn’t make sense!”
She said already laying sitting on the picnic blanket next to us. I wanted to say,
“Yes mom do sit!”
But I just smiled as Neo being Neo said,
“Yes sure go ahead. I am Neo, my girlfriend Palesa!”
“I am Lunga and this here is my wife Bonolo!”
He said and I looked at her face. She blushed! I don’t think he had ever called her that before because she had a genuine look of surprise on her face!
“Pleasure to meet you guys!”
We just called people old enough to be our parents ‘guys’ yah neh this modern age. We started chatting they asked us about us and we spoke a bit.
“I just want to ask about marriage, when do you know its right?”
Neo asked them on our second glass of wine.
“I guess you just know. When you like a person and like you guys have been together for a long time you just know its time.”
She said to him.
“I concur! When you love someone you don’t need excuses. You do the right thing and make her your wife. Marriage is beautiful if done right and you can do it right where some have failed.”
Lunga said and Bonolo played punched him. Neo then stood up and did something that I totally did not expect. He fished for something in his pocket and next thing he was on one knee.
“What the fuck?”
I can believe I actually said that out loud!
“Neo what are you doing?”
I asked him in panic mode!
“I am doing the right thing. I know we are young and maybe won’t be tomorrow when I can afford to give you the world. You are my world and I can never imagine life without you, never! Will you marry me?”
“Oh my God!”
Bonolo said putting her hand on her chest dramatically!
I second that!
Michael Nkululeko Maphoto
I wish I worked for a film company and had all the money in the world because your work really has to be on TV. Guys is there anyone who works for a studio because we are missing out on real talent! We need to put Mikes work out there for all to see. I am so proud of having read your work and I rave about it everywhere I go.
My problem: I am going through a divorce. My husband and I were married for 17 years. I am 41 now and I am so scared of going out there alone. Most of my friends are married so I can’t even say to them let’s go out and celebrate my new found freedom. My husband was a serial cheat who never stayed at home. For my part I allowed him to treat me like shit and for that I blame myself. When I finally got the courage to tell him I was done he actually clapped hands at me and told me he was waiting for this day. He said he just could not tell me first that he had been unhappy for this long. I wanted to kill him for wasting my time. Why do people make you suffer like this? We have two kids together and he was here by force by the sound of it. I work and I would go to work and still come take care of the family for such an ungrateful man. Do you know how painful that is? I failed myself as a woman believing that monogamy is what God wants because truth be told men don’t care. Its something us women comfort ourselves with. All kinds of men cheat from pastors right down to majekelane they are all the same mxm! We women sit at home and hope that our faithfulness will be rewarded! I had so many opportunities to cheat on him but guess what, I told myself a good woman does not cheat, its not what God wants! If God punishes cheating then surely there will be no men in heaven! I am so angry and I can’t even do anything to show him how much he hurt me. How do you throw yourslef a divorce party? I need something to make me feel human again and I want my revenge! I can’t let him walk away without feeling the pain. It might be petty but I need this. We are still going through the divorce and he is dating a university student. He even brought her to court. I need to know what to do, please.