I opened my eyes wide because what I was seeing could not be real, this had to be some kind of an illusion. This could not be my beautiful angel, I refused to believe it. I rubbed my eyes, shook my head trying to wake myself from this horrible nightmare. This could not be happening to me, not my son, no. There was commotion going on people were talking but I had somehow zoned out of all that was being said and done around me. I knelt down, and picked up Neo, there was no sign of life in him but I still held him and screamed so loud that everyone stopped talking and looked at me, tears were dripping down my face. Then I put Neo in my chest and started speaking in his ear “Please come back to mommy, wake up for mommy my angel, please baby wake up. Mommy loves you soo much please my angel wake up please baby.” I begged my dead son to come back to life for some time, everyone just stood back and watched. I looked at Mthobisi who was kneeling next to me with tears pouring down his face “Daddy’s here too my angel, we both want you to wake up and we will go and have a picnic and play all day long, please wake up for mommy and daddy please my angel.