Being pregnant is one of Gods greatest blessings on a woman. I have known women who
cannot conceive lose their minds on the failure of this one seemingly so simple thing in life. I have seen woman prone to miscarriage join every church they can, visit ever doctor they can just so they don’t have to go through the anguish of losing a baby. Make no mistake about it, at this very moment as Sfiso drove that is what was on my mind?
“Please God don’t make me lose my babies! Please God please!”
I prayed out loud. The pain was not as bad as the fear inside me.
“Don’t worry you will be fine!”
Sfiso tried to comfort me.
“Does this look fine to you?”
I screamed. He drove straight to the door of the hospital.
“I need help over here! I need help!”
He shouted as soon as he parked. There was a porter who came running with a wheelchair. It was not a nurse or doctor like they do in the movies.
“I have a doctor here. Her name is Ezile please call her!”
I told him.
“Oh I think I saw her enter! You are lucky I know her name she is one of the nice ones!”
He said. He took me to reception where I was taken up immediately. Two minutes later Ezile ran in,
“Chomi what’s wrong?”
She asked me and when she saw the blood she immediately called for the resident gynae in the hospital. They agreed that they should sedate me and it was that moment that I really panicked.
“Am I losing the baby?”
I asked them but no one answered.
“Ezile please I need to know!”
I asked again but at that moment the drug had really set in as I passed out. I don’t know how long I was under and when you in that space you don’t dream. It was pitch black and I don’t even think I dreamt. It was two hours later that I woke up really groggy from the anesthetic. There was someone sitting on the visitors chair in the room but it took me a while before I could recognize who it was.
“You are up at last!”
The voice said and as my vision cleared I recognized who it was,
I whispered hoarsely. Then the thoughts came back in me in a rush,
“Relax my dear, I have good news, you did not lose the babies! They are perfectly fine”
She told me and the tears starting rolling down my cheeks.
I responded to her. My mouth was so dry.
“Can I get some water please?”
I asked her.
“Yes of course. Anesthetic tends to leave your mouth dry but its ok!”
She told me. I drank a bit of water and then blinked with renewed hope.
“So what happened?”
I asked her.
“Well there is a bit of a problem with your uterus lining. We managed to halt that but I won’t lie, you will have to be in hospital for a few days whilst it heals. We need to monitor it for a while longer!”
She explained. That was fine by me. I just did not want to rush home and have the same problem.
“Lungi there is a guy outside waiting to see you! He said he came with you but I don’t know him!”
She told me. I don’t think she had ever met Sfiso. She was familiar with Simba and Mbilahelo.
“It must be Sfiso!”
I told her.
“Please tell him that I can’t be seen today. Its doctors orders that I must rest!”
I pleaded with her. She looked at me skeptically before she responded,
“Ok cool I will tell him!”
She went out and told leaving me alone to my thoughts and the mess I had made of my life. I was no longer young; I was unemployed and pretty much single when the dust settled. Ezile came back with a confused look on her face,
“Lungi that guy says he is the father of your twins? I know it’s not my place to pry but friend what is going on?”
She asked me. This girl desperately wanted to be my friend and I could not for the life of me figure out why. It’s not like I was the nicest person to her but she kept on coming back.
“Eish it’s a long story and I don’t even know what to think because condom must have burst ntoni ntoni now here I am. Mbilahelo proposed to marry me because he thinks his brother is the father!”
I told her.
“The one who passed away?”
She asked me.
“Yes the one and only. It’s so bad that he even told his family this and I don’t know what to do now!”
I told her looking the other side feeling very ashamed of myself at this moment. How had I become Brooke from the Bold and the Bloody Fools? Even Ezile could not hide her confusion with my story but she managed to smile as she said,
“Look on the bright side, at least someone wants you! The rest of us girls out here don’t even have prospects!”
She told me as she stood up to check on something.
“I need to emphasize something though as both doctor and friend Lungile and please take me seriously ok!”
She told me,
“Yes what is it?”
I asked her.
“Part of the reason why you are having a troubled pregnancy is because of stress. A lot of women do not realize that sometimes severe stress can even cause miscarriages. If I was you I will put my paternity issues very far at the back of my head. It’s important you understand this!”
She told me.
“I don’t even think I know how to with all that’s going on. Remember I told you I lost my job?”
I asked her. I had told her the day she took me out for lunch at Melrose and we ended up at Simba’s,
“Yes I recall!”
“I had an interview planned for tomorrow through Simba meaning I was 100% sure the job was mine now you are saying that I can’t leave this place in the next couple of days! Do you see how things are just falling apart?”
I asked her.
“Then there is my medical aid, I don’t even know if it will cover this but if it doesn’t I am screwed!”
I told her and she responded,
“No Lungi this one is important, medical aid and car insurance are like life itself. When you are pregnant unless you want to chance it with government clinics and hospitals you would rather be in the system! That one you make whatever plan you have to so that you stay on it Lungi!”
“You think I don’t know that! If I don’t get the job tomorrow I am thinking of selling my car for the lump sum that comes with it just so I can survive!”
I confided in her what has been on my mind.
“Do you have any idea how embarrassing that is though?”
I asked her,
“To have to sell your assets and smile to the world pretending that everything is fine when the truth it’s not?”
The tears just rolled down my cheeks as I said this. I had worked so damn hard to get where I was and lost it all. Maybe I should just have kept my mouth shut at work and not challenged the white people! It’s nice to be an activist until you can’t eat then it feels pointless because they move on whilst you don’t.
“Friend I hear you fully well where you are coming from but that’s why you have friends. We will help you where we can so don’t over think this because I want to be an aunt to twins so don’t lose them for us!”
She told me as her phone rang. She was being called somewhere else in the hospital.
“Lungi I will come and see you later ok! I have a few patients to see but tonight am on call so I am going to bug you as much as possible!”
She said and with that she left me alone. Maybe I shouldn’t have chased Sfiso away because now I was alone and alone means you end up thinking thoughts that you should not think of. I needed to tell my sister what had happened. I pressed the beep thing and the nurse came in,
“Do you know where my phone is?”
I asked her.
“Yes it’s at the desk with us! When a patient is sedated we take away things life phones for safekeeping!”
She explained. She basically was telling me that because nurses are thieves too it was hospital policy to not want to be sued.
“Oh ok thank you. May I please have my phone; I have not told my family what happened yet!”
I told her as she left to fetch my phone. I did not want to tell Mbilahelo because I did not want him bumping into Sfiso here before I could devise a plan on how to let him down gently. The nurse came with my phone and my first thought was to call my aunt but I knew she would lecture me about ancestors which I really did not need right now. I wanted to heal stress free. I called my sister instead and she picked up immediately.
“I am in hospital!”
I told her before she even greeted me.
“Hospital? What happened?”
She asked me.
“The doctor said it’s because I was stressed I don’t know! It’s the same hospital I was in the last time please come!”
I told her. I don’t know where she was but she was there within the hour. She was just as panicked as I was earlier but seeing her there made it all better.
“Don’t worry I am fine!”
I reassured her after I told her the whole story of what had happened. She was crying as I told her then when I finished she said,
“Oh God it’s my entire fault!”
“No it’s not your fault. That fight we had in the car yesterday is water under the bridge,”
I reassured her.
“No you don’t understand Lungi, I am so sorry. I thought if I told Sfiso you won’t make such bad decisions. I figured, oh my God what have I done, I figured that it won’t hurt Sfiso like it did Mbuso. I am so sorry!”
She told me.
“Wait you told Sfiso that I was pregnant with his twins?”
I asked her in disbelief.
“Yes. I called him and I told him. I thought I was doing it for you but…”
Before she could even continue I screamed,
“Please just get out!”
I told her!
I screamed. The nurse ran into the room,
“What’s wrong? Doctor gave specific orders that you shouldn’t…”
I was hearing none of it!
“Get out! You had no right to!”
Next thing they were sedating me again!
I was so angry!
So much for being stress free!
Michael Nkululeko Maphoto (fb)
Good day mike and the readers.
I would like your help on something.
Its a long story but I will try to be short. I am a baby mama, I have 2kids a 5 year old and a 3 year old. The father just passed away recently. He got sick and depressed that he ended up losing his job. He was a policemen. When he died he was waiting for his pension money. He got fired sometime last year around August. When I heard that he is getting pension money I went to his work to ask if there will be anything for the kids. They told me since I never filed for maintenance there is nothing they can do its up to him to give his kids money. But now that he has died. I would like to know what can I do so that my kids can at least get a portion on that. Or if there is anything that my kids can get. I even went to court with him court but they told me that I cant file maintenance when his not working anymore That its up to him to give the kids money. But now his gone.