I am deliberately sitting where I am today
Right at the back of the class where no one can see me cry
Its that day that reminds me the most of you imagine ah,
Fathers Day why must it always come can’t they just ban it?
Why at the back you ask, simple, I fear looking at the other kids faces
What with their smiling, happy faces and joyous chatter
As they cut out pieces of all that colourful paper into cards
For it feels like it is my heart they cutting to shreds!
I was not good enough for you to stay by my side
You abandoned me without even thinking twice on it
I was not yours you yelled at mommy when she told you
Imagine her shock for then she thought it was good news!
I used to make stories up about who you were
I made you up to be this great and amazing hero
When truth be told the sum of your worth should have been zero
But every child dreams so who was I to dare be different!
The teacher just asked me why am I not making a card for you
Don’t you want to tell your daddy you love him she asks?
I look at her and tell her I do and she asks so why am I not?
I tell her with tears in my eyes that I don’t know what you look like
Did your father pass on sweet teacher asks with sadness in her eyes
What should I say now for the truth is so hard to admit openly
Or must I make up another story so I can be normal like the others
Oh no wait, why lie, you have never been a father to me one day!
I don’t hate men, no will never give you that satisfaction
I do hate you though so don’t smile because its not about you
Uncle Mike raised me right and taught me so much
Like a puzzle he built what you tried to break to be whole again
And with mommy he taught me the decency to love and to care
With his last cent he fought to raise me a child not his own
That there Sir is my father and he will give me away
He is the man I will call my king to the day I die
That Sir is the man you should have been but failed to be
For I know where he was when I needed you most!
As for you Dad one day I will grow up to be big and strong
One day I will remind you God willing of this day today
I wanted to make you a card telling you what a great dad you were
One day when I can fend for myself and mommy I will do this
I will remind you of all the nights mommy cried for you
I will remind you of all the stories I made of you
It will be a day very much like this you have my word
As I will say with an ironic smile, Happy Fathers Day to you!