Before you think Neo is weak never forget this, “Tears aren’t a woman’s only weapon. The best one’s between your legs. Learn how to use it!” Who said that? I bet you many people are thinking of all the sexist pricks that could have said that but that was Cersei Lannister in Game of Thrones. How many great men have risen and fallen at the hands of a woman? Even in the bible, it was not a snake that made Adam betray God it was the love for his woman. I dare you to tell me I am wrong. Sex is a tool that has confused men for a very long time. You can control what they do, how they do it and when they do it if you know how to use it right. Unfortunately I don’t but I knew Neo, I knew where to touch and how to make him happy for lack of a better word. A lot of women know how to make a guy squirm but to them its love making as opposed to obedience making.
“Baby you look good but I don’t think now is the right time!”
He said without taking his eyes off me.
“Shhhhh baby, I am the one in control here! You and I have not done this in a long time and it’s what makes us drift always!”
I told me in a low begging voice that was not a whisper!
“I know but how about we do it a few days from after we have fixed things between us!”
He asked and I moved closer to him and held his face by the chin and proceed to kiss him. He did not pull back, he kissed back but when he did not touch me back I put his hands on my ass and squeezed them!
“Yes daddy take your naughty girl!”
I said talking dirty. I won’t lie I wanted to laugh. Talking dirty is funny and I think that’s why most girls don’t do it, girls I know in any case. We think we are above it and it makes us look cheap but in all honesty it’s stimulating and plays mind games with your partner. Is disempowering yes but making yourself vulnerable to your partner yet making them powerless to your whispers is priceless any day. It also turns yourself own and too.
“Today I tie you down, and if we have a second round you get to tie me down and do whatever you want to me ok?”
I told him.
“You really going all out neh even though I said no?”
He asked me.
“Yes I am going all out.”
I playfully pushed him roughly on to the bed and as if opportunity was just lying there he had his ties on the couch. I tied his hands on the head board and took off his track pants.
“That’s a bit aggressive love, what new technique is this? You into bondage now!”
He asked but he was teasing.
“I am trying something new. You always say that our sex is the same and monotonous so today I am going to show that I have been watching porn like you advised!”
I said and we both laughed. Shit! This was killing the momentum but hearing him laugh more than made up for it. I was getting somewhere be it slowly.
“I am going to gag you ok. Don’t scream now like a little girl. I don’t want you to touch me and I do not want you to say anything anymore, you killing mood.”
I told him. I didn’t really gag him I instead just blind folded him. I think gagging is a bit extreme and normal people don’t do it to each other.
“Maybe because you are seeing too much that’s why you are thinking too much!”
I told as I blind folded him. He looked very confused by this “new me” but I think it intrigued him to see where I was going with this.
“Well it’s because I really don’t want us to do this. I would rather we talk and try to fix us before we can get to this!”
I laughed him off as I pulled his pants down. I know men and blowjobs so I gave him one.
“Where are your condoms?”
I asked him. He didn’t have any but because I was on contraceptives I didn’t mind. Everyone else I had slept with, Sam that is, I had only ever used a condom. I had never not used one so I knew I was safe. Neo and I had been tested a few times together so this was the ultimate test.
“Do I need condoms?”
“No, you don’t. I have been faithful and I will never put you or me in harm’s way for that matter.”
I responded. It was a lie and because I had used condoms with Sam always it didn’t feel like it was not. I was wet already so I went on top of him. I really hate this position. I like him to be in control and hold me down. Only side chicks go on top and if you a girlfriend or wife you shouldn’t have to do this much work! It’s not natural.
It took him forever to climax and I think it’s because not only was I awkward on top, he was not used to doing this ‘upside down’ like he called it. He had a helluva good time though because he was panting and encouraging me whilst at it. I was flippen exhausted and my thighs hurt at the end of it all. It just goes to show that being skinny or small is not a substitute for not going to gym. I was so unfit. When I was done I rolled over and started panting on the one side.
“Uhm, time to untie me now!”
He said as he helplessly lay there. Crap, because I was exhausted it took effort to do that but I did.
“I am happier now!”
I told him lying down again.
“Thanks for that but I really don’t think it was necessary for us. I would have listened to you just as well without it.”
He said after that super awesome session even by our standards. Why was he acting like he didn’t enjoy it?
“Don’t you like role playing?”
I asked him.
“Of course I do. I think everyone who has ever experienced it does but when the mood and time is right. We have problems right now and they are not solved overnight by a quick roll in the sack!”
He said and I got so annoyed.
“So you call us making love a quick roll in the sack seriously!”
I get that he was angry at me but I had also put so much effort into this moment so he must not cheapen it.
“No I am not saying that but us making love does not mean anything unless we fix us!”
He said again.
“Neo, it’s why I am here. It’s why I am not going anywhere today no matter what!”
I reminded him. I was scared if I left I won’t be able to come back in.
“You know you still have school right and so do I?”
He asked with a wry smile on his face.
“Don’t remind me. I even have an assignment but guess what, I brought it here.”
My phone rang. It was my mother. I showed him the caller and I ignored it.
“This is just a fight waiting to happen!”
I told him. She called again and I ignored.
“Shouldn’t you get that?”
He asked me.
She was relentless. She called again. Really for me it does not rain but it pours. I had forgotten about her. She had been angry that I went to the funeral and my mother is not those moms that cool down after a few days. She is far from that. She gets angrier with time and there is no calming her down unless she is satisfied. She must get her pound of flesh first.
“Pick it up!”
“You know she is angry already that I went to the funeral so that will just be suicide for me!”
I told him.
“That’s the third missed call she has left and you know she won’t stop calling until she gets you. Rather deal with her now as long as prolonging your misery for later!”
He advised. It was not good advice as far as I was concerned because I know my mother pretty well.
“Where are you?”
She asked angry already! What was she angry at though?
“I am back at school?”
“Good! I am at your res right now! Come here right now! I am going to teach you to defy me!”
She continued angrily.
Teach me what?
“I can’t come! I have a test soon so I am studying!”
I lied. My mother could embarrass me and now that she was angry I would rather meet my punishment at home, privately.
“You think you can run away from me forever akere! You will need pocket money soon, o tla bona!”
She said and hung up!
“What was the conclusion?”
Neo asked me?
“I should not have picked up the phone that’s what!”
I told him because deep down I was panicking.
Michael Nkululeko Maphoto (fb)
Today’s chapter was written with the below letter in mind. After your read the letter please answer the question, did Palesa rape Neo because he said NO several times and she insisted?
Thank you for the platform.
I am in trouble and could go to jail. I am a male aged 22 and am in my final year. I have been hitting on this girl for about 2 months and she is 20 and a second year. I am single and so is she. Things went well; we started kissing and all but no sex. We arranged a trip together of which I told her we would have one room (explicitly it was not implied) and she agreed. She even took the room voucher to show her friends and tell all supported her. Two weekends ago I booked us into a Sun City hotel (my mother works there hence the vouchers). We had wine by the Valley, did all things Sun City and went back to our room. We started kissing and when I tried to go further she said NO it was too soon. I tried to convince her and her NO stayed NO. I respected her decision and was not aggressive at all. I could see she was uncomfortable now so I told her I would sleep on the couch and she can lock the door behind her if she was still feeling unsafe. I was still very horny but I respected her. Around 2 in the morning she came to the couch and said she was being a baby about it and she was sorry and she initiated the sex. It was great sex; we cuddled afterwards even and slept on the couch. I only had a one night voucher so we left the next day late afternoon. When we got back to Pretoria (TUT) she went cold. For days I begged her to tell me what was wrong until she sent a message telling me never to contact her again because I raped her. Obviously I panicked. I looked for her until I found her. She was with her friends and I was with a female classmate friend as well. She retold the very same story I just said here to everyone who was there. Her friends argued that because of the wine (which we both drank me probably more than her) and the fact that I had taken her out of town (with her consent) she had been too scared to not give me sex for fear I would leave her there in Sun City and she won’t have transport home nor could she ask from her parents. To them she was forced to give it to me to be able to go back to campus or back to safety. Even when she said no I had made no threat or acted aggressive (she confirmed this too). Imagine how stunned I was when even my friend (classmate) said yes I had raped her. When I defended myself with the facts which she confirmed (as the above) my friend told me I was being typical arrogant male and not taking responsibility for my actions and should humble myself and accept the blame. Accepting the blame would be saying I raped this girl which is far from the truth. I have gone through what happened so many times to the point of writing them down so that I don’t forget a thing and I still don’t see what I did wrong. Did I rape this girl? She said NO and I left her alone. She came to me hours later and we had sex and were romantic the rest of the day before we left. I made no threats to her, did not imply anything that could be threatening either but am I a rapist?
Help me please I am starting to doubt myself even with the facts right in front of me.