“Never underestimate what it means to have an honest and loyal friend! So many women especially turn on each other over time the moment something happens. They forget how hard, how long, how many sacrifices and indeed how many battles they fought together the moment a guy looks at both of them! To throw so many years of friendship away just because you called ‘dibs’ on a guy and he chose her shows a level of immaturity that will make you lose even the ones that should matter to you most!” Mike Maphoto
When you are suspended there are a lot of things you are not allowed to do and one of them is stand in representation for the company in any manner. It’s meant to protect the company from sabotage. Secondly if anything goes wrong with a deal for example and you did it under this condition you could be found criminally liable for it. Good intentions like the ones I had therefore did not do me justice in this case. The reason why I hesitated is that if I told him that I was off the contract what would happen if he pulls out of it? I am not going to say I had worked so hard to get the contract but I would like to believe that my contribution was important enough to care. Again it would be like I had sabotaged the deal so I was in a catch 22 situation. It was too late in the day to call Mr. Gold and besides I did not even have his number. I would have to call Susanna to tell her and that just grit my tits ah! Turning to someone you consider an enemy for help is the lowest thing you can ever be made to do and I had to so! For all I know it had been Susanna’s idea to send Rudzani to Mr. Gold. Rudzani was book smart yes, that’s how she ended up in this company but to go to Mr. Gold directly was not in her personality. She would have gone to Susanna first who would have said to her that this was too big for her she must go to Mr. Gold! See, Mr. Gold was the last line that’s why I did not even have his number on my phone!
“Just give me ten minutes Simba I have just gotten into the house.”
I told him just to give me a chance to make the call. I was still not sure what to call him, Mr. Tizora or Simba so I kept on switching in between the too! This is part of the reason why I had gotten into trouble in the first place, failure to disclose that I knew him outside of work parameters!
“Sure thing go ahead!”
He said and I obliged. I dialed Susanna as soon as the phone hung up. Eish, swallowing your pride is hard and it’s true that you actually get a lump in your throat which goes down with a gulp.
“What do you want?”
Was the first thing she said when she picked up? Firstly I did not even think she will pick up so I am glad she did. Secondly it’s not like I expected her to be happy to hear from me so that did not hurt.
“I want to talk to you!”
I told her. How else could I answer that question?
“I don’t want to discuss your case but you must know you disappointed everyone!”
She said taking that superiority boss she likes taking. Unfortunately something I have noticed is that when you fight with a colleague of a different race, black tendency is immediately to see her attacks on you as racial even if they were not. To this end I always thought of her as racist. I know I had but first and foremost I had disappointed myself first and foremost for not having seen that there was something wrong with Rudzani so their feelings can wait ok! I had considered her a friend but it’s because I was stupid.
“I know but I did not do what I am accused of but its fine I am calling you because of that and I am sure to you I was guilty the moment you heard that!”
I told her.
“Please let’s not discuss it, please! My opinion does not matter at all but if this thing gets reported to the disciplinary committee I am very certain I will be called to testify against you!”
She said and I let her off the hook. I did not comment further on it because even if I hated her, the truth doesn’t change!
“I am not. Mr. Tizora called me just now and he says he wants to discuss the project!”
I told her.
“Why is he calling you? He should not be calling you?”
She said angrily.
“Did you tell him already that the lead liaison had been replaced?”
I asked her a bit surprised actually because that would have super-fast!
“No I did not tell him. He should have been told!”
She said to me!
“Well I am not going to tell him because he might not want to sign with us after all and I will be accused of sabotage! It’s up to Mr. Gold or you to do that!”
I then went on to tell her what all my other fears were if I played either side. She listened attentively and didn’t ask questions.
“This is a Catch22. Whichever way I advise you there could be consequences. Let me call Mr. Gold and find out for you!”
She said and immediately hung up. I was not even sure she will call back and I had told this man that I will call him back just now. Ten minutes later I was already sweating when she finally responded.
“Goodness you took your time! I was scared he would call in that time but thank heavens he didn’t!”
I said when she picked up. She ignored all that and said,
“Mr. Gold said try to redirect him to someone else! He says it will be a good idea to do it to Rudzani this way you two can mend things quickly!”
Had she just said that? Now they wanted me to give the opportunity away to Rudzani the very same person who had turned me in for trying to get it in the first place! These people sure know how to insult and humble you!
“Are you sure he said that?”
I asked her very suspicious of it because I could not see his logic in this. She had said I pimped her out so her working on the contract would only reinforce this belief!
“I am certain! Why would I lie? Do what you have to do and come back to work!”
She said and hung up. Did this mean she wanted me back? Was she not my worst enemy there so why would she want that? Too many fake people in this world. There are simply too many people who are out there who sell you fake smiles! It’s as simple as that! She was one of them! You can never raise a snake as a pet because one day it will bite you by mistake and that will be the end of you!
I now had to call him because it’s what I had said. I was not up for talking to him but I had to. I was going to roll the dice on this one, it was my deal and I was simply better at every one else on my team on its specifications.
“Sorry I took longer than I thought to get back to you!”
He said when I picked up!
“It’s ok you gave me a chance to gather my thoughts!”
I said sitting down. I didn’t know how to handle this though!
“It’s a bit late to discuss this don’t you think?”
I asked him in my last vein attempt to shift his focus to maybe tomorrow but he laughed!
“Business has no office hours hey!”
“I just want to discuss what the paperwork will look like!”
He said and that’s how it began. It was only two hours later that the conversation ended which was bad because it meant I had not done what I was supposed to have done! I had said more about the deal than I was supposed to. Nothing bad but more than I was supposed to have said.
“I am glad we had this chat! I could sense that there were tensions in the ranks when you were in the meeting and I hate working with a company that has bad blood amongst employees!”
He said at the end. It’s a good thing I had not mentioned that there was bad blood then because that would have had him walk away and I would have been blamed.
“It’s ok you in the right place! There is no tension at all, we just very competitive! You know these things come with bonuses!”
I said to him and he laughed. I had lied about the tensions of course! I had to because much as I was angry I was not going to allow anger to motivate me. When he hung up I already had two missed calls from Susanna. I called her.
“What took you so long? Mr. Gold was calling so many times!”
She said angrily. I explained what had happened and that they should expect to see him in the office tomorrow because he was coming back specifically for that!
“Thank you for that!”
She said. I could hear satisfaction in her voice even though she would never say job well done. Guess the credit was going to go to her somewhere somehow! She hung up. I was now left alone to my thoughts and after the day I had had it was not what I wanted. My sister was late! She had said she was coming so where was she. I decided to call her!
“Where are you dude? For someone who said you coming to comfort me you really suck!”
I told her as soon as she picked up!
“Eish, sorry, I decided to pick up food because I know you! You don’t cook!”
She said and I laughed. Well it’s true; I had pots I had never used before! When you are a young career woman, no matter how much of a chef you were at home when you still lived there, cooking is not on your first choice of things to do. We take as many shortcuts when it comes to food as possible. Maybe Saturday morning breakfast but that’s after gym of which there are simpler ways to eat!
“I have a fully stocked fridge we could have cooked together like we used to when we were young! That was fun!”
I told her.
“You mean when I slaved myself because mum thought I was the better cook, I still hate you for that because whilst I was bragging that mum thought I was the better cook I never realized that it meant I did all the work whilst you sat and watched!”
She said. It was true that she had done most of the cooking and it made me laugh.
“Ok just get here already!”
I told her and hung up. I had a chance to recap my day now before she came so I decided to run a bath. I was not going to take hours in it like I usually do because I was tired already.
I had just taken off my dress, before my bra when there was a knock!
Come on now!
Was she here already!
I tied my towel around me and went to the door! It was not her, it was Miriam!
I had just seen her a few hours ago but she was different!
“He hit me Lungi!”
“He hit me!”
Her tears running over her swollen eye and lip!
“He said I cooked too late because I was already trying to ask my mother how to bewitch him!”
She said as I gathered her in my arms.
I look to the heavens and angrily asked God why he made women to be men’s punching bags!
I was hurt!
Michael Nkululeko Maphoto
Thank you for your blog. May God bless you for the good work that you do.
I have a 2 year old son me and his father were together for 5 years, we recently broke up he is Zimbabwean by the way. I have been unemployed for a year now and things are a bit difficult financial for me and my son but my family is helping me. Woo i loved that man with all my being but i guess that was not enough.I am in Limpopo and he is in Gauteng so it’s been difficult to get him to support his son that’s one battle I have accepted that I have lost. We have been fighting and he questioned the partenity of my son. So now he has threatened to take me to court because I have refused to allow him to take my son for a couple of weeks to spend time with him. The only reason I refused is because I don’t know where he stays and I cannot risk giving him my son then never seeing him again. So I just wanted to know if I was wrong for refusing him. I don’t want to expose my son to someone I don’t trust because I know now that he stays with another woman. I would like your readers to give me some advise cos I dont have anyone to talk to.