The hypocrisy that is in women at times defies logic. I don’t know why people want to act all high and mighty but over half of all women have slept with an ex. That number most likely increases when that ex happens to be their baby daddy! Even divorced couples sometimes sleep together. If you hate someone with a passion your emotions are always in a state of upheaval when you are with that person. All that anger often means you make yourself vulnerable when he is around because you work so hard at making him think you are better off without him. By some cruel twist of nature things just don’t work as they are meant to. I doubt any one of these women went there to sleep with him because they some how wish they are in love. We all know with men, once a jerk always a jerk but if the sex was good why deprive yourself? I had not been laid in ages and by the sound of it, Thulare was the “Let’s wait and see where this thing goes!” type of guy. Again I had to sacrifice for a man and wait for him to choose me! How does that work? Is this what God intended for us women to always have to live off what men need and want. Why can’t I as a woman own my vagina and use it as I please because men own and use their dicks at free will? I was not a slut for wanting to get laid and the first thing women need to learn is that we are oppressed because of sex! We need excuses to find ourselves when men don’t! It is why men can cheat on us and we forgive because we tell ourselves how much we can’t see ourselves with another person because it just feels wrong. Sleeping with your baby daddy though something you will regret later, feels like revenge over a bad breakup and makes you feel powerful. You know you still got it and you get to enjoy the sex. What’s not to love! The little voice in me told me to stop it but I did not want to. It was telling me that Meladi is a woman too and what I was doing was not right because women should stick together! Really? Was this not the same bitch that had taken my man in the first place. The little voice can go fuck it self for all I care! I do not need anyone’s permission to have sex nor should any woman! It’s my legs I open, my thighs I widen, my honey I share and my garden I want explored!
Ladies, it’s a fact that not every man is going to have the stamina of a construction worker in bed but he must be good for something physical not just his money. Mudenda was average in sex but the man was blessed with his tongue. It’s like his tongue had a suxtion system that came with different speed buttons. I can safely say without prejudice that in all the time we dated an he gave me oral, I never once complained about it. Even the thought of it makes me curl my toes just thinking about it. I love it when his tongue is licking my inside then sucking my clit… I am not going to describe the process but for the first time in a long time I had a massive orgasm. I as so embarrassed because I screamed as it happened forgetting Aurelia and Lunga were there! They did not seem to care becomes they too were concentrating on their own job. They had swapped positions now and it was Aurelia receiving oral now. This bitch! She had always said that she hated getting muffed but here she was being vacuum cleaned and moaning like a prostitute from Point in Durban. It was fascinating. Her eyes were closed and I could see she was enjoying it.
“Put on your condom!”
I said to him in a whisper!
“Ah come on, are you not giving me a blowjob?”
He pleaded with me but I was not about to go down on a that thing which had spent so much time inside Meladi no matter how horny or drunk I was.
“Do you want to get laid or not?”
I asked him defiantly. I was being unfair I guess because he had gone down on me but ladies, how many times have you gone down on a man and he does not return the favour! All is fair in love and war!
“Not cool but ok!”
He looked like a kid who had just been denied his favourite food.
“What’s taking so long?”
I asked him. He was struggling o put on his condom as he was not fully hard.
“Are you not horny?”
I asked him. He said he was but the pressure of being in a room full of people was getting to him. I don’t blame him I guess because I would have the same reaction if I was a guy.
“If I had a blowjob then this would go away!”
He said with hope in him that was unfounded. I grabbed hold of his joy stick and gave him a hand job until he was hard again. I made him lie down on his back and with no regrets whatsoever, I sat on it. I felt every moment as it inched inside me bit by bit until he was fully in. No, that’s not quite it, it felt like a super awesome massage after having been stressed and knotted up and tight for so long but the only difference being I was feeling thousands of explosion down there. That’s how horny I was. At this stage Lunga had moved and was now pounding Aurelia. She was screaming and moaning just like me. I was drunk, I was not checking on the time but after what felt like ages it was done. Without hesitation as soon as he pulled out, I took a deep breath and stood up. I put on my clothes, picked up my baby and I left the room. I was not going to cuddle. This was sex not making love. He can cuddle a cactus for all I care. I was pretty exhausted and wanted my bed. When I lay down I passed out. I will worry about regrets the following day.
Early in the morning, I was woken up by my phone ringing. Ah crap, it was Meladi! What did she want now? It was 630 in the morning for crying out loud!
“Good morning Meladi!
“Did you have a good time?”
Meladi asked me as soon as I picked up the phone.
“What are you talking about?”
I asked her.
“You know what I mean. Mudenda and you!”
“Are you being serious right now? I don’t have time for you today! You love worrying yourself and then making it feel like the world is against you! Me being here was just torture but nevermind, I don’t owe you an explanation!”
I said confidently. I hung up. My first thought was Mudenda had told her. I carried Amo and went to his room and knocked. He was still sleeping but I knocked till he woke up.
“What is it?”
He said annoyed at me for waking him up. I asked him how he could do that to me. And explained to him what had happened. He told me that he never spoke to Meladi because his phone was still off from yesterday. He mentioned something about it not charging which is probably why she had not called me.
“Don’t worry she Is just fishing!”
He said as I left my room. Now that I was done with it the regret was starting to sink in. What had I been thinking though? That’s the problem with sex, once it’s done and you come back to your senses, if the gut is not your man often you are left regretting it. I decided that I should go and pack. I was hoping that we would leave early. Amo had fallen asleep again meaning it was best I took a bath first.
I was disturbed by a knock on my door as I was in the shower. It was probably one of those three. I was glad though because the earlier they woke up, the more likely it was that we were leaving. I opened to door in my towel and there stood Thulare. At first I thought I was dreaming.
“Can I come in?”
he said after he realised that I was just going to stand there and stare at him without saying a thing. This was either so romantic or so creepy because what was he doing here.
“Yes you can!”
I said. I had so many emotions going through me right now I was not quite sure which was the right one for this moment.
“I thought you would need a ride home and since I was not doing anything I thought I should drive and come pick you up!”
He said smiling. Who could argue with that? I moved to him and hugged him even though I knew the real reason why he had come was to see if I was in Mudenda’s arms.
“Thank you love. I have just finished bathing and had started packing!”
I told him. I immediately realized that I did not want Mudenda to wake up and come to my room unannounced.
“Let me just go in the shower and dress up?”
I said to him.
“Why should you do that? Am I not your man? Are you going to be one of those women who dress up in the dark when you sleep over!”
This was so akward because not doing so would mean I was saying he was not my man.
“I never said that!”
I said and made a fake laugh. I was feeling uncomfortable but I dropped my towel and started to dress up. I did not look at him but I could see he was looking at me. Not once did he make an attempt to come and touch me. I mean this guy was seeing me naked for the first time yet he did not even seem horny for me.
“What made you decide to come for me because I was perfectly capable of doing so with Aurelia?”
I asked him with a smile on my face. I did not want to seem hostile.
“Yesterday you called me and you said you were horny. I was not going to leave my woman with vultures now was I? Do you need help with anything?”
He said and asked me at the same time. He was a few hours too late though for the vultures had already had me. The packing was nice and quick. I did not want Mudenda to see Thulare here for fear of what he might say. When were done Amo was up and had the bottle in his mouth. Thulare was holding him. I told my two boys that I had to go say bye to Aurelia and Lunga.
When I got to their office Aurelia opened. She had a tooth brush in her mouth. She mumbled something as I walked in.
“Good morning Faith?”
He said so casually. Had this guy not seen me naked yesterday. I was so embarrassed. I had forgotten that the following day looking at each other would be so hard. Thank God Thulare was here. I told them what was happening and how Thulare had just showed up to take me home. Aurelia’s response was,
“That’s not romantic. That’s possessive and controlling. That’s wanting to checking on who you are with. Guys like this one day are trouble!”
She said and walked to pick up something on the floor.
“The guy drove three hours? Damn! I wonder what he would have done had he been here last night because he don’t seem like the sharing type!”
That was Lunga!
Why did I feel exactly the same way about this situation?
Michael Nkululeko Maphoto (fb)
Dear Mike and Family
I am a huge fan of your work. Thank you so much for sharing this talent with us.
I am a 23 year old woman and am getting married end of October. The only problem is that I am still a virgin. I chose to wait but now am nervous. I am scared of the pain for one and the thought that he might not like it. What if I don’t like it myself? I am so nervous and stressed about this. He is not a virgin and says he has been with only two girls before me. It me as the date gets closer it’s starting to feel like those “Two” girls feel like “twenty” girls as he has so much experience. Must I see a therapist to calm my nerves. I don’t even subscribe to masturbation so I am a novice at most things sexual. I have only given him a few hand jobs in the past. We dated three years.
Please guide me as I enter a new chapter of my life?
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