“I am going to hell for this!”
I told my self as I looked at her. I really was. I had never been tempted by anything in life I guess and here at my first temptation I had capitulated. I was justified though! At what stage do you look out for number one and say that money is more important than friendship. Is this not part of growing up and being a parent where you put your child first and make sacrifices. I had a child and a job which I could be fired from at any time meaning that I was at a point of living in nervous conditions. I was just looking out for my family and now I had a chance to get a lot of money which would secure my child for life. A lot of people will tell you that you are being selfish for breaking off a friendship for money but if my child gets to eat for life is this not what a mother does, put her child first! Had I not warned Aurelia for so long too that this path she insisted on going down on was going to be her downfall. Why then was I being the bad guy in this situation? Maybe I will even give her half of the money who knows? Everyone will benefit from that!
“Do we have a deal?”
She asked me looking me in the eye. I don’t if I am just weak or a betrayer but I answered immediately,
“Ok that’s good. You tell no one of this, even Aurelia. The less people know the better because once you allow more people into the situation they want to dissuade you.
We shook hands, she stood up and walked out leaving me standing there for a second. Shit, she drove me here! By the time I got out she was gone. She also left me with the bill like what the hell. Serves me right though for being the bad person that I was. I know I should be telling myself that I should call her and say I change my mind because this woman was about to use me for her own benefit. I stood to lose the most but Vele money is money, the more the better. I was damned if I do and damned if I don’t. I had to walk back to the office and it actually was not that close. The car fools you. It gave me a long time to think about what I had done as I walked to the office.
“Where have you been I have been looking for you?”
Orapeleng said as I walked into the office. I was sweating from that walk.
“There is a problem already with that contract we are on but that’s not the point. As one of the new girls tonight we wanted to take you out for a drink or two just to get to know you!”
She said with a smile. Who goes out on a Monday? I told her that I had plans and it kind of felt rude.
“No my mum gave me her card so I can shop for work clothes. I absolutely have nothing to wear.”
I told her. She looked at me funny and I thought at first she thought I was making up excuses. When people know that you are from the suburbs they immediately assume that you have money. The thought therefore that I had no clothes for work and needed new clothes must have made sound like a cheesegirl.
“I would love to go but my mum is a nurse and shopping is a foreign concept to me so I can’t make it tonight that’s all.”
I told her. She laughed and said,
“People might not see it but I actually grew up in Orange Farm, in a shack. We used to share a communal tap and toilet. I got lucky when some NGO took me to school and here I am today.”
She said opening up to me. Funny enough I don’t like it when girls get all emotional on me and tell me sad stories about themselves. It means you will never see them different as there is some element on sympathy you start to attach to them. I do admire her though because she had overcome so much to get here where she was.
The day ran smoothly after that, or rather what was left of it. Lunga was not by his desk even when we knocked off. He simply disappeared. When knock off time came I tried to call him but the dude was nowhere to be found. I should have known he would ditch me I guess. I was not happy at all walking with so much money on me. I had to get a taxi now. As I got to the road I heard someone hooting behind me. It was Lunga. He apologized for being late and said he had had errands to run for his father. He did not go into detail. I did not ask either. I was just grateful and relieved that he was here. We were so lucky in that traffic actually flowed for once.
“Thank you for taking me! I thought you had changed your mind at some point!”
I told him as we parked in the parking lot.
“Nah its cool. You are my boy now so we need to have each others back! My dad is up to something, I can feel it so we have to be vigilant otherwise we will both lose our jobs!”
He was being too sweet though!
“What would happen if Thulare bumps into us right now?”
He asked me. The guilt just swept through me. That was a very good question though because he worked at Investec just opposite Taboo. He could come to the mall anytime. It would like I was doing something with my best friends boyfriend that’s for sure.
“Don’t worry I called him for you? Like I said I am meeting a friend so you will have someone to shop with. I am sure he will take you home!”
He said smiling. I thought he was joking too but in seconds there walked up Thulare with a big smile on his face. They greeted like old friends. Irony was not lost on me. His father wanted me to seduce him, his mother wanted me to divorce her and now he was becoming my friend. This was a sweet thing he had just done.
“Hey love. Why didn’t you just call me? Lunga told me you got shy really?”
He said laughing at me. I just had to ask. When did they get to exchange numbers because last I checked we had left before we got to all that. Why can’t girls have friendships like guys. They make it seem so easy. With us its never not complicated. He said they swapped the moment they started talking. They didn’t even support the same team it was so that they could laugh at each when one loses. Lunga said he was late already so he left immediately.
“I am so glad you came but what do you know about women’s shopping especially for work purposes?”
I asked Thulare and he laughed. He said that since he works corporate he has seen all kinds of dress codes and he had an idea of what he thought looked good on me.
“If you allow me, and are game, I will pick all the outfits for you! If you don’t like what I choose you can always say no! However if you agree, every outfit I pick you will try on for me! Right?”
He said. Well that was a challenge! Normally when you go shopping with a guy, he tends to spoil it for you because he sulks and makes you feel bad for taking your time. Not Thulare, I must have tried on a thousand outfits and he kept on encouraging me to try on more! He had taste too, he never gave me anything skanky or uncomfortable. He never made suggestive comments. I only realised how much time had flown when some of the shops were starting to close down. I had not even eaten. He said he could not do supper with me because he had to go see his daughter in Soweto by his mother’s place! I tried to call Lunga to tell him I was leaving but his phone just rang. I sent him a message instead.
I don’t know why people want to move to Jhb because the traffic is situation is just out of control and what’s worse for the second time today I was caught in load shedding. It took us two hours to get home but for every minute I was laughing. He was such a funny person and it came so naturally. How was this guy single though?
When we got to my house he came out of the car to help me with the bags. I put them by the door and walked him back to the car. I did not want him to go though, no lies. He was just too perfect.
“I am about to kiss you now, please don’t punch me…”
He said with a smile on his face. I moved in closer and our lips met for the first time ever. It was warm, sweet and soft, yes, did I mention soft. As I was getting deeper into it I heard a voice I knew too well,
The man’s voice said from behind us. He had walked out of the door and I didn’t even hear it.
“Oh wow mate, small world, what the fuck!”
Thulare said pulling away from him going to the owner of the voice! He stopped and turned to look at me and said,
“How do you know my cousin… well cousin in law is more the word but wow! Dude what are you doing here?”
He said with disbelief in his voice! I can’t blame him. I had the same look and sound in my voice when I said,
Michael Nkululeko Maphoto
I’m a 23-year-old female and I ‘think’ I am addicted to masturbating (clitoral stimulation ONLY). I enjoy it so much not a day passes by without me doing it, sometimes twice a day. I have a bf, and I’d like to believe that he satisfies me because I really enjoy the sex, it is on point.
I try to understand why I do it, and I’m thinking maybe 1. It is because he doesn’t pay much attention to my clit. 2. He doesn’t go down on me, and I’d like him to, I’ve talked to him about it and he says he’s working on it. 3. He gives me good sex but I rarely come from just the penetration only.
So maybe I do it because I love clit stimulation but can’t get it from him (or that’s what I’d like to believe).
I’ve done it all, I’ve used a make up brush to tease, back of a pen to slightly stab on it, I’ve used a clitoral pump, humped on a pillow, pinching…u name them
Family, how do I stop, or atleast reduce the number of times I do it? I would like to stay the whole week without touching myself, like normal people do.