I am not sure how cruel a person I really am but when you are pushed into a corner then you are capable of finding the deepest darkest pits in yourself. When you are in your right state of mind there are a lot of things you say you will never do because you are such a good person but truth be told, unless you are put in a situation which challenges you then you are unable to judge what your true self would do. For one, are you willing to kill someone else to protect the ones you love? Are you willing to abort a pregnancy for the greater good? See what I mean, when you are not in the right situation you are unable to actually be objective on the matter because that added pressure to do something or else is not there. You start to think of getting arrested or being judged by others but in that moment all that goes away. Survival of the fittest instinct takes over. So many things had happened in the last couple of days it was not natural. I had to find a moment just to breathe to make things settle down. Not a moment to myself also meant that I was not at my happiest. Now I knew why a normal person can have a stroke. It’s too much work to just exist at times.
I decided on going to the hospital. All the way my heart and mind were telling me that I must let her suffer. That would be her penance for the woman who had died, Khanyi’s house I am sure she had burnt down, Lindiwe she had most likely killed and two marriages she had destroyed! Why did she get to walk away still looking like an angel? I almost stopped the car and went for a drink. Let her suffer for life! Let her! I did not want her anymore! Why should I care? Often forgiveness I overrated! When I got to the hospital, I sat in the car for what seemed like hours to be honest. I was torn between letting her suffer her own fate and doing the so called right thing and help a fellow animal in need! Yes I called her an animal! She deserved the SPCA the way she was selfish and mean. Ok fine, I was starting to sound like her. I was here now in any case. I went inside to hospital and found the doctor who had called. He was quite annoyed at how long I had taken but I snapped at him and told him that I was here right? He needed to chill because he did not know that I changed my mind last minute otherwise I could have walked away. I signed my consent form.
“Are you not going to go in an see her?”
He asked me as he noticed I was about to leave! I stood there and looked at him with my hands on my waist and said,
“No! She is not my wife anymore!”
With that I walked out. I was avoiding seeing her because I knew if I did I will feel sorry for her and get emotionally attached to her situation. I wanted all this to be done with. Where was her lover anyway? When I got to the car I found myself stuck. I got an sms from the bus saying it had an hour delay. I sent Zimasa message and reminded her that this time she must come out with all her things. She said her battery was almost flat so when I come I must come in to call her. She had left her charger at the BnB. Nothing sucks more than travelling with a flat battery. I decided I was going to pick her up now so she could come charge her phone before she left! It was already 730pm when I got to the house and you would swear it was midday the way it was still so light out. That’s Cape Town for you. I tried the gate bell because I saw that he was back already and I did not want to talk to him. No one came. I called her but her phone was off already. I hooted but no one came! Crap, I had to go in and possibly see this loser again. I walked in and I had not even gone far when he walked out! Here we go!
“How dare you come to my house?”
In fact it was not even a question, more of an expression said with so much anger. I tried to explain what was happening to him but the man was already mad with grief. I honestly don’t understand people at times. Where was he all this time when his wife was suffering from his neglect yet now here he was losing it.
“I dropped off Zimasa earlier on am just here to pick her up man. Please let’s not make this worse than it already is!”
I said to him with my hands raised to up almost in surrender stance to show him I was not hear for war. I really was not. Too much had happened meaning not every fight at a time like this can solve anything!
“Worse? How worse can this get? My wife is dead you stupid fool! This is worse!”
He shouted at the top of his lungs. Why was he screaming though? This guy had serious issues. It was definitely time for Zimasa and I to leave.
“I will be out of your way in a minute!”
I said calmly making sure I did not let this time bomb explode even further. He was not done though!
“I am not like you! I have so many mistakes but I love my wife! I lost not just her today by my son who was in her womb! That is two people in one evening! Then tell me how that is not worse! How dare you even say that?”
He said angrily.
“I am sorry I used the wrong words. Please just call me Zimasa so we can leave. You have a lot to deal with so I don’t want to be in your way.”
He looked at me for a moment and I even thought he was going to fight again but he didn’t. He actually went still and seemed to have calm down. At least.
“Stay here! Don’t come any closer to my house!”
He said which I think I understood at this moment and I was not going to fight. As soon as he left my phone rang! Finally my wife’s parents were calling back! Where had they been all this time?
“Mxolisi what do you want? We get it you are leaving our daughter so stop calling us!”
Why was everyone fighting me today though? Why?
“There had been an accident!”
I started. I told them what had happened, in detail how another woman had caught her in bed with her husband and the acid. Everything. They were so quiet as I did so all I heard were groans and then tears. I guess the truth hurts. Where had they been though? I am certain they were going to find her a new rich husband!
I thought I heard something so I turned to face the gate but whilst still explaining. That’s when I felt it. Something pierced me from the back. I could actually feel the plunge of the knife as it went inside me. As it sank deeper I am sure it cut something as I lost all energy. That bastard! He was now trying to murder me! As I fell to the ground I remember thinking, I had not even gotten to divorce my wife and here I was leaving her with everything. This is how I started my story, how I never divorced my evil wife! The only way of escaping her was death.
As my knees hit the ground, I turned to look at him, my attacker! This man just knew how to make mistake after mistake.
It was not him, I saw females legs. It was Ezile, no, maybe Zim…
I could not breathe properly and I choked on my own blood,
The legs moved forward I think to finish off,
I passed out!
******The End *******
Michael Nkululeko Maphoto (fb)
Hi Mike and all the readers,
Thanks for the good read, I have been reading comments I hope you guys can advise me on my problem.
I am average looking (girl from next door) really nothing to wow about. I met my husband at varsity our first year in 2001. We have been together since, married for 10 years. But oh boy he has cheated on me with lots of girls I have even lost count. We have a child together and she will be turning 9 this year. He recently told me that he has fathered two kids outside our Marriage with two different women. The first thing that came to mind was HIV/AIDS and how selfish this man has been. He only think of himself and his need. I really don’t know what to do cause in all this years I have been faithful to this guy and never cheated on him. I have this anger in my heart and I don’t think I can forgive him for this.
I am scared that with all the feelings I am having I might do something I will regret. He is the only man I have slept with if I can put it out there, like literary I don’t know any other’s man Dick except his. Now I am tempted to see what am I missing. Cause clearly I don’t have experience in that field. I might as well get some experience and compare what I have with what is out there. Thoughts that I have nothing to major/compare with hence he still comparing me and getting his bread buttered on both sides. But again I am not that type of a woman. I have told myself that the man I will sleep with will be my husband.
How do you let go of 14 years relationship, where do you start I know he has hurt me a lot, but still it hurts to just up and leave. I used to make excuses that I cannot afford my own place and will not be able to sustain. GOD has blessed me with a good JOB recently and it pays very well. I can be able to move out and start all over again. It is so hard, how do you start all over after so long? How do you leave it all behind and move on. The other issue is that I am a very private person people really don’t know what is happening in my life. I never told anyone about what he has been doing not even his mother or mine. How do I tell my parents that my marriage is over? Do I tell them how bad he was. I don’t want people to loose the respect they have for him as I believe he is still searching for what he wants. He still needs to grow up and know who he is. He is struggling with self-worth and he is trying to find it in places where he will not. I hope he one day realizes who he is. At the same time if I don’t let them know the real reason it will be like I gave up on my marriage.
Dear friends Of Mxolisi, haters of Asthandile and all… this is the end of Mxolisi’s journey.
Divorce ladies and gentleman is not a measure of last resort because at times too late really is too late. Cheating in marriage often has a tendency of making one lie grow into so many more lies and I know some won’t believe me but this is actually a true story. The lady in question was our Asthandile and her husband died at the hands of her lover. Please take lessons from here thouse who will listen.
REALITIES OF A MODERN WIFE
As of next week this is the blog that will replace Memoirs. If there are any wives that want to share their stories, especially in the certain scenarios
1. Hubby brought home a love child?
2. Hubby’s family hates you? What are the cruel things they do to you?
3. Hubby is entertaining the thought of taking a second wife and you are powerless to stop it
4. If you received a calling, how that changed your life?
5. If you are entertaining thoughts of cheating with a colleague?
6. If you have a rebellious teenage daughter or sister how you are dealing with her and how it is affecting the family.
For now let’s focus on those. 0835905147 is where we can have the chat or you can just email me.