What would you do if you woke up one morning to discover that you are HIV positive and the person who gave it to you is lying right next to you? Fair question right! Fine I was not positive but her recklessness had exposed us to this situation. Again here I was beating up a pregnant woman and I really wanted to stop but I could not. I was not going to hit him again for I dealt with him the last time. Now it was her turn. I don’t and will never condone any violence on a woman yet here I was. I was angry and I was beating her as though she was a child. She was jumping from one end of the room to the other to try stay out of the reach of my belt. Eventually the wimp of a boyfriend she had came to stop me. He pushed me back and protected her from the last few blows.
“That’s enough man! You will kill her or induce a miscarriage of your child!”
He said holding his nerve! It was not my child it was hers and his! I stumbled back and sat on the couch. All I could think of was HIV positive. That’s all. Everything was forgotten. I did not want to die. Some of us are old enough to say ARVS have not always been there so I have lost friends to this disease. I wanted to cry but I was too angry.
Eventually the commotion died down. Funny enough it was a knock at the door that caused. Keeping up appearances my wife immediately ran upstairs so as not to be seen. I went to open the door. Thank God it was no one of importance just Zimasa. She immediately hugged me and said thank you bhut’wam for taking us back. I had forgotten that when Asthandile left she had left with Zimasa. Marriage just has too much baggage.
“Go upstairs I have guests. We will talk later!”
She walked in and did her molweni to her friends father. I noted that she had no recognition in her eyes towards him meaning that she haad actually never met him. He just said hello and looked the other way. He had not moved from where he stood but once she went upstairs he sat down and started.
“I met Asthandile a few months ago at the gym. It started off as just talking and teasing the gym instructor who takes for the classes until one day we decided to have coffee. I don’t know whose idea it was but it happened!”
I am not sure I wanted to hear this but I also had no energy to stop him. He continued,
“There was one day it rained a lot. You were supposed to pick her up but you said you got delayed at work. I dropped her at your place. It was that day she kissed me! She was crying because she was convinced you were having an affair because I think the first month after that coffee she called you so often and you always had an excuse!”
He stopped again I think hoping I would intervene but to my credit I did not. He must finish!
“From then on things developed faster than I thought. I might have taken advantage of her loneliness I don’t know but she loves you. Yes she made a mistake but there is very little that woman won’t do for you. I am sorry that I played this role in your marriage but I hope that somewhere somehow you will forgive her!”
He said. Was this man for real. Did he really think I was going to forgive her? I wanted her to suffer! He stood up, took out a piece of paper and put it on the table before he walked out. I was too tired to pursue him. I sat there for an hour staring into space. I did not move. I did not sleep I just stared into space. I was lost in thought when someone shook me and startled me in the process,
“I know you said I must not come down but am hungry. Must I make you food?”
It was Zimasa. I had forgotten that part. I told her yes even though I was not hungry. I looked at the paper on the table, the one he had on the table. It was a doctor’s report which proved that he had a vasectomy. This means that the doctors had surgically stopped him from reproducing meaning he was not physically capable of having a child. Asthandile really was having my baby unless she had another man I was yet to discover! I took the doctors report and put it in my study because I was going to follow up to see if it was legitimate. These people had played me for so long no more taking chances.
“I know now is a bad time but may you please go with me to school. I have to bring a professional to school and you being a lawyer will make me sound cool!”
Zimasa said in the background. I think I said yes but my mind was so far away unfortunately. I was not thinking about her or anything other than Asthandile, baby, pregnancy and obviously HIV. This was too much to take in.
I then went upstairs to the bedroom. The door was not locked. I opened the door at the very moment I had a chair fall in the room. As soon as I opened, I saw the chair actually still bounce once on the ground as above it, with two of my expensive ties, Asthandile was dangling by her neck, feet twitching like a finger on the trigger of a gun but most importantly in midair!
I screamed running towards her!
Mike Nkululeko Maphoto
Hello Mike and Fellow readers,
I must say Mike you are brilliant at what you do,keep at it and God Bless.
(Please keep me anonymous)
I’m from a small family of 3 (Mom, big sister and me). My parents have since separated but that’s not an issue. My mother is such a strong woman and her faith is amazing, there’s nothing she wouldn’t for us, she makes ends meet through her small business and thank God for her. I am 22 years of age, doing my final year at Varsity and working (I don’t earn much though, just entry level position). Now the problem is with my sister sigh, don’t get me wrong I love her she’s my only sister but her life choices are affecting me. First of all she didn’t finish matric and never tried to fix it regardless of the countless times my mother tried to convinced her, she parties literally every weekend and she spends her piece job wages on hairstyles, clothes and alcohol in that order but wouldn’t even buy herself toiletry. Her ex boyfriend tried to burn my house with me and my mother inside 3 times (she was still out partying), she moved on with yet another unemployed boyfriend who my mother didn’t approve of at first, they party together and that’s their life. My sister is 30 by the way….she’s started getting sick a few weeks back and we later found out that she’s pregnant mind you both her and the current boyfriend are still unemployed,both have kids from previous relationships and the guy’s family hate my sister as they still love his first baby mama, Now my mother and I will have to support my sister and the baby financially coz my mother spends her last cash taking her to the doctors already. She told us the doctors said she had low blood and that was that, recently she told me privately that she’s HIV positive and asked me not to tell my mother and she’s certain that she was infected by her current Boyfriend (I have never cried so much in my life) my mother has been nursing her from day one and she’s also losing weight from all this stress it really breaks my heart to see my mother like this. I am bitter and angry. I feel like my sister could’ve prevented all this. Should I tell my mother about her status? Is it my business to do so? Am I wrong to not want to help her financially? Am I judging her?