With the luck I have been having lately I won’t lie to say that I was not relieved when I realized whose voice it was! I did not care what she had heard I was tired. I had it in mind to go confess to my wife about all that was going on. Women like a man who cries when he confesses to something. I think they feel you are so sorry for your sins. I would cry, sleep on the couch for a few days or so then all will be back to normal. I was tired. I am not this player guy. I did not want Khanyi nor did I want Lindiwe. In fact, Zimasa must leave too. I wanted to be alone with my wife so that things can go back to normal. Me being suspended also paved the way for me to actually leave Cape Town and go start afresh elsewhere! Everyone needs a fresh start and I had a few friends who had already opened their own firms so getting a job would not be too difficult for me even in this economy. I was not in a position to open my own firm as yet because for that I would need lots of clients but again that was a worthy goal which I had thought about greatly. If I left Cape Town Zimasa would have to go home. Problem is, most Xhosa women who leave the Eastern Cape for Cape Town rarely ever want to go back to the EC so I could not see neither my wife nor Zimasa agreeing to this. My wife had just found her feet so am certain she would fight this tooth and nail!
Khanyi was no friend of my wife’s. I had always known this so what was I doing? I was playing my wife for a fool by allowing her to bring this woman into our home. This was low even for a cheating husband to allow the mistress to move in. I think it was time I asked my priest to pray for me. In times of trouble we all pray and I was no different. With Lindiwe I could not leave under the threat of being exposed. She had the potential to make my life really miserable which is why I had to pre-empt her before she did something I would not be able to manage.
Zimasa asked me directly what she meant by the fact that she was in love with me? She did not look at Khanyi but looked directly at me when she did. Good question? Was Khanyi crazy? How could she allow herself to fall in love with me? Again I say this, o frailty thy name is a woman’s heart! Let me get this straight, she was my mistress meaning she knows I was not loyal hence probably should not be trusted. Two, she knew I was married and worse married to someone she called a friend. How then could she fall in love with me? Sexist as this might sound, at times women defy logic. Khanyi seeing that Zimasa was there immediately tried to retract her statement saying that Zimasa had heard wrong.
Zimasa said she did not mind that we had had sex because she clearly heard that part so we did not have to lie. I had to ask why sex was not a bad thing. I know that was like poking a bear. She said that the way grownups are so uptight about sex was rather pathetic. Sex to her was like kissing, two bodies touch, some people even add tongue which to her was like penetration and what’s worse was that as much as they were uptight about it everyone does it! According to her there really was nothing so sacred about sex because it was a physical act which you can ever buy if you wanted. Falling in love on the other hand is what she disapproved of because unlike sex it was not entertainment. Falling in love was intimate, feelings were involve and love came from a place you cannot touch. Even if you were in an abusive relationships and people told you otherwise, when you are in love you are in love! There is nothing you can do about it. That’s why girls and women stick around a useless guy for so long. It is not because they are pathetic but because they attached themselves to a loser!
Khanyi and I just stood there! Is this what they were teaching teenagers at school these days that sex was no longer an intimate thing? Maybe not school, society? She was right about one thing though, sex was now easier to get than drugs and way cheaper too but that’s where it stopped. I explained to her that she had misheard us. I told her that the reason why Khanyi was here was because the man who did this mistook all the signs she had thrown at him and ended up doing this to her. He had hurt her real badly because like she said, he thought sex was free and a right! I also warned her that if she kept that mentality she would be dead from HIV by the time she was 20 and she said that’s why she keeps a condom in her purse and schoolbag! Teenagers! Always a cocky answer! Very irritating! I told her to go her room and she walked away like it was nothing.
When my wife came home tonight I needed to tell her that I had sinned against her. It was time I went back to whom I was before this whole mess started. They say all men cheat but I did not want to be that man. I wanted to be a good man with a family and a stable life. I do not like sneaking around as clearly I was bad at it. I meant it. Khanyi came to me and said that there was something that she had left in the office which was very important. She had tried to call my wife but could not get her. I told her not to worry because I was going to surprise my wife in any case. It was late anyway and my wife when I worked late often surprised me with a late night visit. It was time I returned the favour. Besides there were too many people in the house for us to talk.
Khanyi gave me her key for her office for when I got there. Since my wife was there working late I would give her the key to open the office. I am sure there were many people there because of their deadline.
When I got there however the place was deserted. The only person who was there was the reception. I think her name was Azile. She had stayed because she was studying for her exams and the office was the quietest place. Funny thing is she remembered me from the first time I had come though not by name. I asked her were everyone went and she sarcastically replied they had gone home after looking at the time as though I was crazy.
I asked her what about people working on the big project and she said as far as she knew there was no big project. In fact the closest thing they had was about three weeks away meaning life was a bit easier in the office right now.
I was confused. I was certain my wife had said they were working on something. Oh well, misunderstanding perhaps. I drove home. When I got there, her car was not in the driveway still. Not two minutes later she arrived behind me. I was sitting in the car even. She saw me. She took out the files in her car and walked to my car as I got out.
“Hey honey have you just arrived?”
She asked me because I had never come out of my formals.
“Wow, never thought working could be so hectic! We just left the office now! Everyone was there and people were not even grumpy imagine except me! I just wanted to come home to you the whole time…”
Maybe they have another office I don’t know about!
Michael Nkululeko Maphoto
Thank you for reading my story and sharing it with your readers.
I am a 29 year old lady, living alone and loving it, though the loneliness at times gets to me.
My mom broke up with my dad when I was 3 years old and she dated a taxi driver and she was unemployed. Through out their relationship he’s always abused her in every way possible, it was unbearable to visit them by my mom insisted (I stayed with my grandparents, God bless them). They abuse went on for over 16 years, he was training her to retaliate and she finally fought back. She came out of the darkness bt not fully, she fought back in every way and landed in hospital a few times with broken ribs, bones and concussions. The hospital finally persuaded her to lay charges and she did but each time the cops would take her statement and not open a case. Their excuse was abused women always dropped the charges and they even had a name for this horrifying behaviour: the Friday/Monday syndrome. I fought with the cops to arrest him as they had medical evidences from the hosp, eye witnesses to the abuse who were willing to testify bt they still did nothing. He always begged her forgiveness after each episode and she’ll forgive him and go back. They had a daughter and things got worse, I stopped visiting after I begged my mom to leave him and she chose him. One day in 2004 my baby sister came to visit my grandparents after school, she was 10 then and told us she and my mom moved out and are now staying at a different place for three months and they were happy, I was so excited. I was employed by then, immediately after Matric and went to visit mom and saw it true, she finally lefg him. I think the relief was a lot to handle as I had a nervous breakdown and was hospitalised for two weeks in Dec 2004. I took care of her and she never went to ask him for anything anymore. He came around accusing her of moving on and threatened to kill their daughter, my mom and then himself. He carried through that promised on 4 June 2005. My baby sis was visiting his parents. He stabbed myom 7 times, locked her in her new place and left her to die. He hanged himself at his place. When both bodies were found in the morning of 5 June his family hid the suicide note he wrote before the cops got there and my baby sis only found it last year at her aunts house hidden. It is still hard for us bt we are working on it. This has affect me so much that I don’t have long term relationships. I see abuse warning signs far away and I walk out of the relationships. My aunt now, mom’s younger sister is going through a similar ordeal with my mom. I don’t understand why, at least she’s employed by ‘UBEKEZELE’. I am so angry at her we are also planning her funeral while she is still alive.